Monday 24 January 2011

Never will I regret

Dear my dear....sorry for started complaining since early morning. Feel relief with my sis's situation. May mum and Buddha continue to bless her.

Dear,hopefully u could understand that it's not my intention to say things in that way but I just can't help to not share my feeling with u in LIVE(since I can see ur face now). Your dear will try her very best to search for a calm in heart. I will. Just give me some time. Another half day or what...then I wouldn't want to talk too much about it anymore in coming three days. I wanna cherish every min  I have with my dear now. Honestly, they do make me feel that I'm so lucky.

Dear, if got a chance, I'll still come. See what else will they say. I know, I must not let myself falling into their trap. If I feared away, means that I agree with what they said is  right and doing sthg wrong which I don't think so. I'm not regret with my decision in coming here. I'm not someone who simply make a harsh decision in the beginning without calculating the risks and reasons. These 3 months is the most precious time I spent in life. I treasure it because I know, I'm not alone. I have my dear who care and love me so much so much..much more than myself.

Dear, my EQ is not very high.I can easily get angry and got frustrated with what people said. Give me sometime to digest and think things over. I believe, I'll get a better solution to fight back.As long as my sis, u and my friends are there to support me. Also, nothing is more important than my sis's health. Buddha bless. She'll recover soon.

Friday 21 January 2011

是快还是慢? 是长还是短?

不知道该说很快还是很慢,反正很“痛苦”的一个星期快要过去了。我快能重见太阳了!(笑)这一个星期,过得很不健康。我满脑子里就只有他。这种感觉真的很不好受。好像每天都活在没有太阳的空间里,挣扎着,等着,盼望着,期待着。什么吃喝睡的都变得不重要。就好像活得很颓废。

他已经住进我心里了。我也不知觉地盖了间超大超豪的房子给他。原来,心里面的房子空了出来的时候是那么难受的。这样的情况,是不是标准型的热恋期?如果是的话,是不是就意识说,这样的心情,过了一段时间,这种感觉就会被时间给平伏? 我倒还真想看看能有多大的差别。一是,我现在真的想像不到,再说,要是这种热恋期持续太久的话,我怕我的心脏会负荷不了。好像每一次都担心房子会被突然而来的地震给震坏似的。

这一个星期,每晚都要拿出他的照片,看了好几篇后才能入睡。眼睛一睁开,手一伸,就把电话打开查短讯。曾几何时,他就这么闯进了我的生命里。

看着初中一年级一些同班同学聚会的照片,让我不停地感叹。原来,我们在数码相机,手机,电脑都还不流行的时代里就已经被命运给扯在一起了。可是,大家都没有意识到。再见的时候,我们是通过Facebook约会,然后各自拿出数码相机拍照留念的时代。回头看看这当中的变化,确实是蛮大的。但是,16年的时间,对于这些科技上的进步和人类这种生活上的改变,究竟是一段很长还是很短的时间,有时候,还真的不能一语概括。

话说回来,好想看看他拉小提琴的样子。是那个在13岁时,被老师叫上台的那个样子哦!真的丝毫没有察觉,原来这个很纯情的小男孩竟然是我的未来丈夫。哈....天哪,真的是人生如戏,戏如人生。真切地希望16年前的这对小男孩和小女孩,在他们的20年后,还是这么地爱着护着对方,找到幸福人生的真谛。

Thursday 20 January 2011

小别胜新婚?

想你,在我的生活中已经变成了比吃饭还重要的“任务。刚才出去走走的时候,一直在想,为什么可以这么想念另一个人。占有欲亦升到了顶点。常常听人说,小别胜新婚。原来是这样。

Wednesday 19 January 2011

唯独你是不可被取代

看着我们的照片, 想了好多东西。Dear, 每个女孩子都喜欢被人赞美, 你的Dear也不例外。所以, 被人赞上一两句, 就会像小孩一样, 兴奋地跑到妈妈身边汇报。Dear, 我们还有好长的路要走。我很开心, 在我的路上有你陪伴, 可以在第一分钟跟你分享我的喜怒哀乐。I promise you, I'll be there, no matter your heart is filled with laughter or sorrow, I'm always there.When I lost my way, please give me the strength to carry on and for sure, I'll do the same for you. Nothing, nothing could separate us,nothing could beat us down. Dear, trust me, we can make things through and you are the Best for me.




Monday 17 January 2011

Although we are apart, it's only in body, NEVER in heart

Dear,你还记得这首诗吗?突然间,好像回到了当时的情况。这么近,那么远。

There are many thoughts and fantasies 
Wandering in my head. 
While I dream about you, 
And when I am asleep in my bed, 
I wish many things. 
I wish with no fear 
That right here beside me 
You would be here. 

I wish you could tell me 
In person every day 
Just how much you love me. 
And never would we say 
To go our separate ways. 
It would just break my heart 
To have to know 
That we were apart. 

A dream can go 
Where a wish cannot. 
A dream can bring true 
What a wish never thought. 
When I dream about you 
You are holding my hand. 
My feelings for you; 
These I had never planned. 

Gazing at the stars 
On a dark, cold night, 
We utter sweet words 
Under the pale moonlight. 
If you were here beside me, 
I could look at you. 
It would all come together; 
That you are my dream come true. 

I am smiling as I realize 
That although we are apart, 
It is only in body; 
Never in heart. 
I hate not having you here, 
But I know that some day, 
Fate will bring us together 
And never push you away. 

If I could only see your face, 
If I could only feel your touch, 
Id tell you how much I love you. 
Is that asking for too much? 
Ive been thinking about you all day. 
I do that often it seems. 
But I just cant help it 
When youre in all of my dreams. 

Meeting you was fate, 
It was a choice becoming your friend. 
This relationship between us 
I hope will never end. 
But when it comes to falling in love, 
That was beyond my control. 
There is no way to stop these feelings I have 
Deep inside my soul. 

At night I close my eyes, 
And in my dreams all I see is you. 
I want you to be near me, 
but you're so far away. 
I hope you feel me in your heart, 
as you travel your path today. 



Sunday 16 January 2011

在地球的另一端,我等着你。

有时候真的发觉我们俩很搞笑。不知道是英国和日本的关系暗藏玄机,还是我们把它们弄得 “剪不断,理还乱”?

一年前我们在日本重遇,之后你回到英国“痴痴地”想我;现在你去了日本,而我在英国“疯狂地”想你...老老实实跟我说,这是不是你暗地里设下的计画?要是如此,恭喜你,你已成功地把我给逮着了,可以回来了!快点回来!

Dear..12个小时的飞机,9个小时的时差,真的一点都不好玩。我很讨厌这个距离。它又把我们拉到了地球的各一端,又要我们一尝思念之苦。其实这苦涩的味道,更像是喝下了一杯很冷很冷的水,然后用很长很长的时间把它变成一滴一滴眼泪...

Saturday 15 January 2011

2010年12月--巴黎浪漫之旅(1)

12月27日~31日的巴黎之旅为我翻开了人生新的一页。

12月28日,老天不做美。从早上就开始下着毛毛细雨。把握时间的旅人们还是冒着寒风细雨来到了著名的奥塞美术馆(Musee d'Orsay)。听说巴黎的著名景点,尤其是像这类博物馆和美术馆,无论是假日还是工作日,都是人山人海。我们撑着雨伞,排了大概两个小时,才踏进了大厅。放眼四方都是一幅幅价值连城的艺术作品。片刻间,感觉自己好渺小。从拿破仑一世时代到印象派主义兴起的艺术古画及雕像很多都被收藏在这个美术馆里。走马看花的欣赏也得花上几个小时。当中对Renoir,Van Gogh , Manet, Courbet, Ingres和Jean-Leon Gerome的作品印象比较深刻。
这是夏特尔大教堂(Cathedrale Notre-dame)。这座用了一百多年来建造的大教堂,不管是里是外,都展现了它非凡的一面。




栩栩如生的浮雕和一面面绚丽光芒的珠光玻璃,无一不是12世纪的经典作品。如果有时间逐一欣赏墙上浮雕的话,能够更了解圣母和耶稣的生平故事。

28日晚上,最后一站是巴黎市的地标之一的凯旋门(Arc de Triomphe de l'Étoile)

据说这是为了纪念拿破仑在1805年战胜了俄奥联军修建而成的。又是一座宏伟无比的建筑才作!登上凯旋门的顶部平台之前得爬个不下250级的石梯,让我这平时不做运动的小瓜体力耗尽,感觉天玄地转。
Champs-Élysées (香榭丽大街)


可是,当香榭丽大街的霓虹灯和巴黎铁塔的青黄灯光映入眼帘的那一刻,就像突然觉悟’皇天不负有心人‘的意思。


这是10点半晚上,回到酒店附近一家餐馆吃的晚餐。好硬的牛扒~

寂寞的空气

2011/1/15 的夜晚11时09分

刚吃完了下午带回来的意大利面和一条香蕉。今晚,家里的空气显然跟平常很不一样。正在往地球的另一端飞着的你在做着什么呢。看着电影还是已经蒙头大睡?

Dear,好想你。今晚是我这么多个月以来最寂寞最不踏实的一晚。刚才一回到家就在计算时间了。你一定要平安到达日本,赶紧完成工作,然后平安地回来喔!真的很不习惯没有你在身边听我唠唠叨叨说个不停。即便我是做在饭桌旁不停地对着电视屏幕按着电脑键盘,你也是懒洋洋地赖在沙发上陪着我的。空气中少了你的呼吸,多了一份寂寞。

Dear...goodnight.T_T xx